“Being patient means waiting with a happy heart.”
Then I turned to my husband and said under my breath, “I need to tell myself that too…the happy heart part.”
I’ve been thinking more about that the past couple of days. It sounds simple enough when I explain it to a toddler, but I am daily struggling with contentment in our new hometown. I can’t see where God is taking us and I am questioning his plan. I am waiting to know why he brought us here and wondering what we will learn…but I’m not doing it with a happy heart.
What do you do when you don’t feel like you have a happy heart though? I know the answer in my head, but it’s taking time to make it to my heart.
I know that my happiness is not dependent on my circumstances. Just as I knew it was best for the 2 year old to stay buckled in her seat, God knows what is best for us even when we don’t understand. My joy is that Jesus rescued me from sin and death—that is where the happy heart comes from. Jesus is the reason the apostle Paul could say that he could be content in any circumstance, even when he faced death and torture. His joy was rooted in eternal truth, not temporal circumstance.
So, how does this knowledge get from head to my heart?
I know for myself that I must be saturated with scripture. I need to be thinking more about the things of God and less about myself. I need to be able to recognize sinful thoughts and replace them with truth.
This has been, and always is a much bigger challenge during pregnancy. I’m tired, unmotivated, and more easily frustrated. After 6 pregnancies I wish I could have figured out how to get through it more easily, but these months always serve to remind me how dependent I am on the Lord for everything. And that’s probably part of what he’s teaching me.
Paul prayed for the Colossian church that they would be “strengthened with all power, according to his glorious might, for all endurance and patience with joy, giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in light.
Reminding myself today that my patience with joy comes from HIS glorious might, because I am a child of God through the saving work of Jesus Christ on the cross. And praying I will continue waiting on the Lord…hopefully with a happier heart!
Also linking to Lydia’s “Mindful Mothering Mondays.”